i really miss...someone(more than one)

all the suddent in 5.27am, i view esther blog again dont ask me why cos i let me feeling move when my brain is about to sleep. but always, always when i read her blog, i feel so empty...cos i have lost them. i mean i have lost the chances to be with them anymore. i can only always b4 i sleep or when i walkin alone with my mp3 and let all the memories flash in my brain. i really regret of what i have done to make me lose this... just bcos i fail my fuckin bm so i have to move myself away from the future that i think can be more better. things gone is gone. i have a new chapter to move on soon...i am nervous just like last time b4 i start in coll. i am lucky that i meet you all cav1. but will i have the luck again for my new life??

i felt really empty inside myself.i have lost myself...?