该放就放~

我不是很喜欢用华语打blog因为打很慢。。。但使用英文又词不达意。。。久久还是用下华语吧。
到了第三个星期我真的很累了。每天都没办法真正的休息。回到家也没办法思考该做的功课。有点对不起偶的组员。能够做的，就只有上课时真的上课加思考同步进行。幸好现在上的课我还能应付。只是剩下那些麻烦的报告。真他妈的累。我的累已经堆积到睡觉都未必能好的地步了。。。还说什么恋爱，命都不够长了。。。已经过了一个多月都不知几时会再心脏病发。。。希望D他们不会被吓坏和谅解我吧。。。我也不想的。。。T.T
D说的话也很对。我们必须相处两年半的时间，现在才刚开始，不要搞出什么乱子比较好。我们相处得好像一家人就好了。从他口中说出来，我还真的替他心酸。。。这一路到底他是如何走过来的。。。难怪人家会喜欢她都不是我。。。我在他身边绝对得太渺小了。。。后悔也没有用我已经浪费太多时间了。。。能够做的，就是从他身上学他学过的。D，I do really respect you bro. from the bottom of my heart. 看到他，我只想起我以前读书的macha.我们被称为CAV双雄~hahaha一路来我们都并肩地完成全部assignment也一起的度过了快乐的一年。我被逼停学的一年，我不知道你到底发生什么事你留级也退学了。。。还以为有机会再同一系再见。。。现在只能背负着我们一起的梦想，他日成功之时再见！D你不要跑啊我还很需要你在我的group啊~所以今天我才把他们交给你的啦因为我的国文不好我不想害你们。你相信我我也相信你。我就去害别组啦~XD
最经也不知道走什么运，去年得空的时候想认识女生都难。现在就认识一堆!也就很白痴的喜欢了不该喜欢的人！为什么老天爷就是不能够让我单单纯纯的谈下一场普通到打哈欠的恋爱。。。就是要我眼花缭乱心情扎烦到一个地步！！到回头想，我真的那么差吗真的没人喜欢吗？？你只要对我点点头我就赴汤蹈火有前无后的把握的一切交给你了。。。我的累只要你的一句关心我就心肝情愿啦。。。不要问我为什么那么想谈恋爱。因为恋爱真的把我的生活添加色彩和把握的心加强了。你可以不信因为有心脏病的不是你。被嫌弃被歧视的也不是你。但至少我活得比普通人精彩！
我喜欢你，因为我对感觉的忠诚信任不误。但是只能到这里为止了。我不能像以前一样的不顾一切。至少要照顾身边的你们。不能让这些私人事影响大家。错了一次就够了。如学冰说的，你爱的永远不会在你身边,你只会跟在你喜欢的身边。


希望我可以颠倒你的话。

-止-

New life, new tought

after a long waiting year, i continue my study life, a new life.
i am really panic at the 1st day of class. should say nervous. cos i am alone. thou now i have a small little group of friends but i still miss the group we have last time-CAV. and so time goes cant return, i have to appriciate what i have. always my life is really lucky i have a gOOd fren name D. he is a mr.thinker because he really know what is deep inside my heart and my mind thinking. And in our group we have a little princess type of girl i call her ah Baoz. not like others she didnt have bad thought behind. hope i didnt judge wrong lo...and we have a funny girl and a girl about have some complicated life like me name joyce and yenny. so far they are the close fren in my class la...but they didnt really group together cos they didnt really accept all of us together mayb....something deferent is i am much more easy to go along with D's girfriend's group. they are super funny when we talk all bout crap. this is something i didnt expect in my new life cos my kind of ppl i wont be able to have any close friend again.

after friend then should talk bout something more then a friend. as D said me kind of ppl easy attract girls come around me. only now i feel it is so true. i didnt mean i am so ''ban nai'' but...all of them are really good girls and so i really fall into one of 'her' now....she is really pretty and she is one of the best girl i have score before. but after i calm down and think carefully...i dont think i should really go tackle her. i am really not a good guy to deserve someone so perfect... thou i put alot of afford in my study life now, but i am really so ready for a relaitionship d...so hope there is someone can really take my heart away but not 'u' la...i dowan to influence you la....T.T

and so when things are so perfect, sure there is something bad...the cost of having a good school life, i need to wake up everyday 5.30am and so duper tired everyday till night i only reach home...and my body now started to have effect....always sini sakit sana sakit... and i so scare anytime my heart attack will scare my frens away...now only god can save me...can Mr or Ms god bring my life to what i aiming????